Dedicated to two of my Good friends!

Last week a very good friend of mine Roopa got married… it feels really strange and am sure that feeling would be shared by a lot others when I get married, including me of course… anyways coming back to her, we kind of had a twisted fate and like me she shared the same feeling that marriage could be - Ahem “Not our cup of tea”, well then what did we know…

Her story is a little weird I must say… she got married in about 3 months of her courtship… to a very good friend of mine again Ashish on 16th October 2006…

No matter how odd it feels to see her finally married and settled down, I must say am really happy for her…

All the very best Babe… I wish you happiness and joy throughout your life… you’ve deserved it… and to Ashish my boy… I can’t help but to wish you Good Luck! :-) For obvious reasons you see (Roopa can be really hard to live with at times… hehehe) Just Kidding…

On another Note... it was really great to see you guys finally getting settled… keep it up…

And to others – A very Happy Diwali and a prosperous New Year!

Waning...

What are you to do when you have this sinking feeling all through out, fighting for your best to make things work and losing everything that you have built up so far…. You see your self esteem drowning right in front of your eyes….

Is that right? How can you live a life – your life while the other suffers, unable to find air to breathe…?

The enthusiasm that I have built so far seems to be waning… not surprising; it had to happen some day…

Life sometimes...*sigh*

Sometimes life’s so harsh on you that it leaves you wondering where 've you gone wrong?

I am just not happy with certain things and certain people don’t seem to understand or care.

Fine then, don’t blame me later!

Phew!!

I am Back…

I just finished with yet another round of wedding shopping, this time in Chennai. This whole wedding thing is getting on to me now. I don’t think I can take any more of shopping. I am extremely exhausted. Although the trip was quite tiresome (target being to complete the shopping all in a day) but I still managed to have fun.

The worst part was I was so close to him and yet so far (I went with my in laws you see) and he was quite naughty winking now and then starring at me all the time (as I was under direct surveillance of my mother in law) and he wasn’t. I mean I couldn’t even look at him. :-) - Directly…*Sigh*

Now let me recite you the story.

We left on Friday evening 6th Oct 2006 (father-in-law, mum-in-law, sis-in-law, Sunil & I), reached Chennai early Saturday morning around 5am. We then refreshed ourselves at Appa’s (father-in-law) office guest house. From there we left around 9 to go for a small check for Sunil’s sinus update (he underwent a sinus surgery last April – for which unfortunately I wasn’t there for him and that I will always feel guilty for ever). Thank god everything was normal. Had breakfast at Saravana Bhavan and then left for the much awaited agenda - shopping.

The first on the list; sarees – RMKV was the place… managed to pick up about 3 sarees (apart from others in amma’s list) there. It was nearly around 1pm when we finally left to buy Jewellery…

My jewellery is perfect…I just cannot say anything about it and I am so glad that I picked up my choice of everything on the list, of course through my sweetheart’s preference as well; which definitely makes it all worth while.

And to see all of that you will have to wait for 1st Dec 2006.

We managed to finish all the shopping by 4pm and then had late lunch. We then went to visit 3 of his cousins to invite them for the wedding and finally took the night train back home - where my wedding ghagra was waiting for me (i had it made from kolkata). Hmmm wasnt as bad as i expected it to be but...sigh... i still would prefer the red ghagra to this...

The outcome ; a wonderful opportunity to spend a great time with the family,“my family”… they never once made me feel out of place… and what do I say about my sweetheart? He was wonderful. He made a conscious effort to make sure I was having fun and enjoying the trip. And it really paid off…

Thank You God… for Him… for everything…

Distressing Questions!

I would like to ask this to the Women around as well as a realization from the men…

Why does it hurt to be disappointed? Why is Hurt itself painful? Why is it that when you give 100% in something or to someone and when you don’t receive what you expected in return (which may not necessarily mean 100%) why do you feel disappointed and why does that frustrate you?

Why is it that when you love someone so dearly and you don’t think twice to keep that person happy and when that someone knowingly does not realize the extent of hard work you put in to keep him happy why should you feel sad? Love they say does not expect anything in return – is this true? so then why do people in love fight and end up totally disappointed?? Does it mean they are no longer in love???

These are human characteristics I know, but why is "that" someone deprived of this? Impatience is not impotence they say, so then why do you feel so powerless when, you don’t get what you expect??

These questions have been bogging my brains for the past few days, and to which I don’t have answers… do you?